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I am 28

THIS IS MY LIFE

BY LORETTA

years old and have been a TV all my life or at least as far back as I can remember. As a little boy I wasn t dressed as a little girl-never heard of petticoat punishment, I didn't have a drunken father, my Mother didn't baby me and keep me tied to her apron strings. In short none of the class- ical explanations apply in my case. I have no one to blame for my TVism. I won't blame myself because I'm not mad at myself for being a TV and I wouldn't give it up for anything in the world. Oh, I'll admit that at times I was a very mixed up young girl and hated myself for liking dresses. But since I've come to understand it, no me could take my dresses from me and expect me to ever by happy again.

If you think TV is a problem to me then you are wrong, It is the rest of the un-understanding world that is the prob- lem. The two big problems that I do have are that I'm in the Armed Services and if it were ever found out that I was a TV I would be kicked out. My second problem is that I've been married for about 2 years to a girl who has no idea of my de sires. But even with these problems I'm still a happy TV. (((Ed. Note: Since this was written to me Loretta's marriage has broken up. Loretta herself, whom I have met seems to have been able to make a satisfactory adjustment to this.))

But to get back to my story the first event that I feel had any relation to my TVism occurred at an age when I had just started school. One night we had company and like all little boys when company came I didn't want to go to bed when it was time. But I was sent to my room anyway and told to go to bed. I got into my pajamas and into bed but wasn t sleepy. The light was still on and I noticed a pile of clean laundry on the table which Mother had left there when the com- pany came. On the top of the pile were a pair of Mother's silk bloomers. For some reason, I don't know why I took of my PJs and tried on the bloomers. I remember that I liked the feel of them and I slept in them all night. This is where I say my TV life started, but why did I put them on in the first place?